Tuesday, January 6, 2009

ambitions and dreaming for 2009

I've been thinking a lot the past few days about my life and where I am headed. I've worked in marketing and PR for a few years and my heart just isn't in it. I don't enjoy it anymore, and when I studied this subject at university, I didn't realise where I'd end up. Being passionate is a huge part of my life; whether its fashion, boys or work, I need to feel a huge passion to find it enjoyable.

Looking back - the past few years feel like a numb ride through a world of ikea and big name brands. I find myself struggling: being part of the norm versus being myself. But to define myself becomes harder and harder the more I submit to the digital marketing industry and agency life.

I've always loved hospitality and fashion; I still enjoy working in hospitality, but my body is taking the toll of working 9-5 and 5-5, there is too much of a shock, the body clock is whack. So I have to make a decision.

The threat of leaving the industry is that I 'might not be able to go back'. But I doubt this; it's a concern of course, but a) is it really true and b) do I actually care? I never wanted to work in an agency being an Account Manager. I always wanted to do more, have more responsibility and make a difference.

I've been considering studying to become a Sommelier, as I've always had a huge interest in wine and hospitality and when I've worked in fine dining, I thrived. Of course fashion writing is a passion, but I'm not sure it's what I want to do right now. I'm enjoying going out and meeting people and the bar lifestyle, so I think I should embrace it... I'm not an office person, I don't do 9-5, I'm going to move on and create a different life for myself.



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4 comments :

MISS GLITZY said...

Good luck as it seems to be a big change in your life! But you're right, life is too short, to quote a phrase. I wish you the best for this new year, hope you will achieve your goals.

Vintage Vinyl said...

Thank you for the lovely comment on my blog :)
I hope you will achieve your goals! I've set a few for myself as well, I hope I get to them :)

tam pham said...

at the risk of sounding trite, i totally know what you mean. best wishes. happy new year.

Lavender said...

Its so easy to get stuck doing something just because you can isn't it?

I work in marketing too and got so frustrated last year by bureaucracy and bullshit that now I'm only working part time and spending my off days doing freelancing and doing things I love. Not really all that brave I know but its giving me balance.