I've been thinking a lot the past few days about my life and where I am headed. I've worked in marketing and PR for a few years and my heart just isn't in it. I don't enjoy it anymore, and when I studied this subject at university, I didn't realise where I'd end up. Being passionate is a huge part of my life; whether its fashion, boys or work, I need to feel a huge passion to find it enjoyable.
Looking back - the past few years feel like a numb ride through a world of ikea and big name brands. I find myself struggling: being part of the norm versus being myself. But to define myself becomes harder and harder the more I submit to the digital marketing industry and agency life.
I've always loved hospitality and fashion; I still enjoy working in hospitality, but my body is taking the toll of working 9-5 and 5-5, there is too much of a shock, the body clock is whack. So I have to make a decision.
The threat of leaving the industry is that I 'might not be able to go back'. But I doubt this; it's a concern of course, but a) is it really true and b) do I actually care? I never wanted to work in an agency being an Account Manager. I always wanted to do more, have more responsibility and make a difference.
I've been considering studying to become a Sommelier, as I've always had a huge interest in wine and hospitality and when I've worked in fine dining, I thrived. Of course fashion writing is a passion, but I'm not sure it's what I want to do right now. I'm enjoying going out and meeting people and the bar lifestyle, so I think I should embrace it... I'm not an office person, I don't do 9-5, I'm going to move on and create a different life for myself.